From the corner she mumbled,
"And so life goes on, in a never ending cycle, never slowing, never speeding up, yet time for me has ceased to mean anything other than be a deadline for the things of which I have yet to accomplish. I find that time has begun to move at a pace that is no longer of any relevance, with a few memories here and there, sticking out, details as clear as if I were reliving them.
I never thought it would be this way. That everything I thought would happen this year turn into what it did and crumble away from beneath me. A tangled mass of information, ideals, and happenings struggling to break into my consciousness. I struggled to regain what little control I had on my life, and so I lost more. Yet from that turning point came a new realization, that only I am my biggest obstacle. From this new knowledge I have learned a lot about my self and about people around me. I see what I can become and have set a new precedent for myself. Potential is endless, however, changing that potential into something useful requires energy. Without the will or desire or means to change potential, it is useless. Basic laws of physics, but also for life.
So much thought has gone into this epiphany that the writing of these basic thoughts seems to not do the realizations justice. Insignificant as they are, many other principles of life can be derived from them. As a major river may have a delta spliting it into two, or have tributaries breaking off, so have my thoughts, carrying me into untold directions. I am only limited by time and myself, but as previously stated, time is no longer of consequence. Why dwell on the past, or worry about the future when, if you do so, you will miss the present."
A sigh escaped her lips as she donned her mask and continued her journey through life behind her facade.
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